Warrior

Mary sat beside me with
the edge of the fire in her eyes
She said, Absolutely mental how
everything around you will change
You think you're sitting still
but you're actually flying
She had attempted to sweep
her flame damaged hair
into a style that resembled normal
It hadn't worked
The hair puffed
like a deranged halo
So scary it made me feel safe
Like I could let
my lovely aunty Mary
loose at the night
and the darkness
would take a step backwards
It’s with a heavy heart that I report the first casualty of the journey. We camped next to a small river. Second go at setting up so we had a rough idea of what was necessary. Mary got the potatoes on the fire early so the empty-bellied arguments didn’t flare up like last night.
I was by the river with the young team collecting water. Saw the whole thing from a short distance. Mary was wearing an old jumper, frayed and bobbled, and had a long scarf wrapped around her neck. She leant over the flames to poke the potatoes with a branch. The wind kicked up and changed the shift of the fire. The scarf slipped and hung low enough to accept the flame. Unaware that the scarf was on fire, Mary flicked the loose end over her shoulder. Her hair began to spit smoke.
Mary is a woman you wouldn’t want to tackle on a battlefield. Mid-fifties and built like a berserker. The way she reacted to the chorus of, Mary you’re on fire, only enhanced the impression from my childhood. She straightened up like an Olympian. Without shouting or screaming she sprinted toward the river, heading full pelt toward us. She know she was burning but couldn’t pinpoint where. She crossed her arms over the front of her body and grabbed the bottom of her jumper and took everything off on the move. Pulled so forcefully she hooked off the scarf, jumper, and T-shirt underneath that. Totally topless she came sprinting toward us—her nakedness bounding. Mary streaked past and plunged into the cold water.
Fourteen-year-old Douglas, Mary’s grandson, was standing directly to my right. Of all the kids he seemed the most stricken. The whole thing played havoc with the pallor of his face. Mary was fine. No damage. Even her modesty was untouched. No one laughed louder than her when she recovered her breath from the freezing water. Of course, she wasn’t the casualty. How young Douglas deals with his grandmother’s bounding nakedness will be an early test of his judgement.
About this poem
This poem was included in Best Scottish Poems 2023. Best Scottish Poems is an online publication, consisting of 20 poems chosen by a different editor each year, with comments by the editor and poets. It provides a personal overview of a year of Scottish poetry. The editor for 2023 was Aoife Lyall.
Editor’s Comments:
In this poem we witness and – if we are lucky – recognise, the comfort of being on the right side of a powerful force, the right side of danger, and with it the total and utter belief in someone else’s strength, the unshakable conviction of their power to protect us. In the use of “my lovely aunty Mary”, the innocuous warrior of the title, Letford identifies the relationship between the poem’s speaker and subject. By doing this near the end of the poem rather than at the start, he reminds us that gentleness and strength are not diametrically opposed, that love is the greatest call to arms.
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