Outwith

Outwith
‘outwith’: preposition: outside; beyond. A term unique to Scotland. 

Revising my visa essay, 
applying for three more years
here, I read my own scribbled words: 

Comparable opportunities for critical study
do not exist outwith Scotland. 

Outwith: a term unfamiliar, yet
scrawled in my own hand, 
doubtlessly mine, and I wonder: 

I came here all rude American brass, all 
trash can, fanny pack, Where’s the castle?

Then Glasgow rolled itself under my tongue, 
a grey marble lolling my mouth open with Os:
Glasgow, Kelvingrove, going to Tesco, 

then thistling my speech wi sleekit lisps, 
wee packets a crisps, 

my lips like the lids 
of those glass bottles of sand
I used to collect from every beach: 
my mouth a shore holding each grain
that altered the flow of my speech, 

my pen flowing ‘s’ into the cursive waves
of ‘socialised,’ ‘civilised,’ ‘acclimatised,’
answering Aye! by accident 
then smiling. 

I may be from out
but I am now with. 
Katie Ailes

from Glasgow Women Poets (Glasgow: Four-em Press, 2016)
Reproduced by permission of the author

Katie Ailes

Katie Ailes is a poet and scholar originally from Swarthmore, Pennsylvania who currently makes her home in Edinburgh.

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About Outwith

This poem was included in Best Scottish Poems 2016. Best Scottish Poems is an online publication, consisting of 20 poems chosen by a different editor each year, with comments by the editor and poets. It provides a personal overview of a year of Scottish poetry. The editor in 2016 was Catherine Lockerbie.

Editor's comment:

Confession: for most of my life as a Scottish but reasonably cosmopolitan citizen, I had no idea that 'outwith' was a  purely Scottish word.  (Really? What are you supposed to say? 'Outside'? 'Without'?  Both have alternative meanings and neither work properly.) This poem by American Katie Ailes – a spoken word performance poet whose work also reads beautifully on the page – is a captivating, fond, witty  piece about the absorption and use of language and accent and becoming part of a culture. And in the new isolationist rhetoric  which emerged  in 2016, the final two lines serve as a fine, clever, perfectly crafted sense of  inclusion, not exclusion.

Author's note:

It’s amazing how unaware we can be of the effects of our migrations on our own tongues; how subtly accents shift and new words find their way into our mouths.

Though I’ve lived in Scotland for several years now, I rarely register how much my language is changing — my vocabulary widening, ‘Os’ lengthening — until I call home and all that evolution sloughs off for a wee while (to return as soon as I hang up).  This is one of my favourite poems to perform live due to all the accent shifts I get to make in it (and the rude joy of yelling ‘fanny pack’ in feigned ignorance at the audience). The longer I live here, the more comfortable the Scottish sections feel and the more the American section feels like putting on an accent…

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